Wow, it's been a year since the last post was made. Time absolutely flies. Cliché as it may sound, if you don't treasure what you have, your entire life will slip away from you uneventfully, and you'll have missed all the beautiful moments that life is able to provide. Getting into a relationship with a person you truly love is perhaps one of the most beautiful things a person can experience in his/her life, and I'm very grateful that I have had the fortune to go through that.
Over a year has past since the last post and that also means that over a year has past since we were together. I think being at my current job has taught me many things, one of the most important of which is the meaning of the word gratitude. Yes, admittedly, I was an ingrate in my earlier 20s (I'm 25 at the time of writing this post). I don't blame it on anyone, but at the same time I think I didn't have a strong father figure to teach me the importance of a man having values.
I understand it somewhat now, after having observed how some successful men at work behave, as well as delving into lots of books. Yes, reading has been so essential in shaping who I am now that I wish I've spent a lot more time on books in my younger years. Of course, I have so much more to learn, but I think I'm working at a steady, sustainable pace right now and that's a good thing. I've been reading biographies on people I admire (Elon Musk), books on leadership, management, neuroscience, psychology and just about anything which I think helps improve me as a person and my work performance, and its been thoroughly enriching.
Now, the meaning of gratitude is a little clearer to me, not just through books but through seeing my grandfather going for hip replacement surgery and realizing how lucky one is just for having the use of your legs. I find something to be thankful everyday, which I'm not always successful at (there are still bad days, but I'd like to think that I've been rather successful at reducing them) but I try.
And it is through learning all these things in 2016 that I realize what an dick I was to my ex-girlfriend at times. I can honestly say that I am a better person because I met her, yet I am appalled today at some of the behaviors which I have shown her. So yes, if somehow you're reading this and you know who is writing this, I want to sincerely say that I am sorry for all my past behaviors which have hurt you, and that I am so thankful that I had the opportunity to have you in my life for a good three and a half years. I don't know how the future will pan out but you will forever be one of the great loves of my life. In the months that have followed our breakup, I have cried, I have anguished, and know this, I really hope you meet a guy who will respect you, treat you right, and most of all protect you. You have earned this right for being such a wonderful human being.
